Body positivity- what’s right for me!

Hi lovelies, so this week was the 12th of April and here I n England that meant that beauty, retail, and outdoor spaces (including pubs) could open back up again. I, like many was very glad for this easing in the rules as I got a well-deserved trip to Primark. Although the rules easing felt great it also brought on a massive wave of unexpected anxiety that has caused me to feel overwhelmed and a sense of social anxiety when it comes to speaking/ meeting new people.

I think that this has had a massive impact on my mental health and my body image. I think it’s because like most people I have put on some weight during lockdown. This is hard to accept because it’s hard to not feel upset that you have changed without doing anything for a year.

So, after knowing all of this I still looked in the mirror and wanted to burst into tears! An d what is worse is that because I didn’t like the way I looked I felt even worse, It’s a never ending cycle. But that is no help and still leaves me stuck at the beginning.

The journey that I am on is a mental one to be a better person but to feel like myself I had to get clothes that I felt like myself in and this also goes for my body. The only way I can explain this is that when I think of myself, what I think I look like, it doesn’t match up with the realistic image of what I look like. in my head I’m curvy but my boobs are smaller, and my waist is slimmer. I never realised how awful this outlook was on my overall mental health and that I had to decide weather to alter myself to fit the image in my head or alter the image in my head. Both are hard work and have a mental impact.

Loving yourself is something that is so important and it’s something that I used to pride myself upon doing. I used to love myself, I was confident, liked the way I looked but there were also parts of myself that I hated. The person I am turning into is someone that on the inside is loving, happy, accepting and someone that is happy to be themselves. I am in no way shape or form an expert this is all my personal thoughts, feelings and experiences.

After my week of having a bad self-image, I have decided to start a diet, start exercising and find ways to love myself the way I am right now, just because I want to get into shape doesn’t mean that I don’t want to love myself as I am. I want to be healthier, and a diet and exercise is helping me to mentally feel better about myself.

This post has been different from my usual posts but it’s something that is so important to my journey and is a big part of many peoples lives its so important to address to you and to yourself. So, what are some things that I have been thinking of/Am considering.

· Dieting (safely/ changing what I eat to be healthier)

· Exercising

· New routine

· Starting meditation

· Learning and starting the process of manifestation.

· Breast reduction surgery.

· Getting my nails and hair changed

· Changing aspects of my environment.

All of these things are things that I have started thinking about, but making changes takes a lot of thought and even a small change can have a bigger impact than yi can ever imagine.

So here is your weekly check in-

o What was a big moment on your journey this week?

o What changes have you made/ do you want to make?

o What is the best change that you’ve made?

o What scares you about your journey?

I hope your week is amazing, your journey continues, and you feel good about you!

And remember you do not find a happy life. You make it.

Thank you for the continued support and if you want to support further

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- Laney

Xoxo